By Carmen Roverez
I tried and I made a huge mistake. I have
never been so wrong in all of my life. I did my research and
I thought I had it all figured out. I guess a big part of
me wanted to believe that Pearson would never abuse his position
of trust. I always liked him and thought he was a good coach
- a fair coach. To hear he made sexual advances on Tammy makes
me feel sick inside. If I was so wrong about Pearson, what
else have I been wrong about and completely missed?
When I first got involved in renegade,
I did it for selfish reasons, I wanted to be a star,
wanted to get my face out there and really push my modelling
career along. Then I started to meet people and research stories
and my idea of renegade changed. My idea of myself
changed too. I started to realize that I can do a lot more
for myself if I use my brain and not just my beauty. I was
feeling really good about myself, you know?
I was so excited about breaking the story
I missed a few steps along the way. I feel terrible, not about
how my report affected Pearson - he made his choice. I feel
terrible about Tammy - not believing her and indirectly encouraging
others to not believe her. I can't take back what I did, but
I've learned a hard lesson. All I can do now is admit my mistake
and hope that somebody else learns from what I've done.
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